Last weekend, I was studying like crazy! With the amount of studying I was doing, you would think I was preparing for my AP Bio final. But, I was studying, out of free will, for my permit test. I was determined to pass it the first time and nail the 46 question test. I had taken so many practices tests online, but I was still nervous and scared that I wouldn’t pass. Well, all that studying paid off. I aced my test and the next thing I knew, I had made an appointment for my first driver’s training session. I was excited and couldn’t believe that I was going to be able to drive. But suddenly, my mind began to fast forward.
I began to realize that I am growing up faster than I thought. My 16 birthday is this year. I am going to get my license. Two years from now I’ll be in the last semester of my senior year. Then I’ll be moving out, living on my own, and going to college. For some reason, reality hit me hard. I mean, I knew all of this stuff was coming, but I didn’t realize just how fast. College has been something I have thought about forever, but it seemed so far away. Not anymore, it feels like it’s just around the corner. It’s bittersweet. I want to leave Porterville and move on to bigger and better things but I’ll be leaving people I love and everything I’ve known.
Life flies by, but it is up to you whether you want to make every moment out of it or not. It seems like yesterday that I was complaining about wearing my “stupid uniform” and making my way through elementary and junior high school. I remember looking at high school students and thinking how grown up they were and how I couldn’t wait to get there. Well, here I am and I find myself almost half way done. I had always been told that time goes by faster when you are older and I am discovering that statement to be true. I want to grow up, I want to go away to college, and I want to begin the rest of my life. However, it never fully cemented in my brain that doing that meant leaving a huge piece of what I cherish behind.
That sounds so familiar to the things i want to do with my life, I want to get away from all this drama leave this town and start fresh in a new big city. But i have noticed it is the hard way, i went through elementary and middle school leaving all the people that i loved in my life behind, but i opened my eyes and realized that friends are just like balloons once you let them go you can never get them back. So honestly im not scared to leave everything behind because i know were gonna step up to a good future. I wish you the best of luck in the future.
ReplyDeleteSometimes reality hits me like that too, although i am just a freshman, I feel as if I am growing up very quickly as well. I remember, as if it were yesterday when i was just in first grade, playing with shapes, having fun not having to worry about all the problems life comes with. Today I sit here just thinking back, remembering all the good and bad things that have happened in my life, but there is nothing i can do about it now, what is done is simply done there is no going back or erasing in real life. All you can do now is look back and not make the same mistakes, instead make better decisions and think twice about what you are about to do. I can proudly say that I don't have any regrets in my life, just mistakes that I have made and learned from. Those mistakes have made me who I am today, they have made me into a wiser, stronger, independent person. Before I leave I just wanted to tell you and everyone else who might possibly read this, live your life to the fullest, don't listen or do what people want you to do but what you know is right, and don't sit back and feel bad for all the bad things you have done just simply see that as a bad experience that you shouldn't do anymore. I wish you the best of luck in your future.(:
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Bailey I love your blog so much! keep writing!(:
ReplyDeleteWow Baily I went through the same thing. Ive went to the same school since preschool and i really miss it. But when i finally graduated from the 8th grade i was nervous on going onto high school. But then i relized that i was going to meet new people and make new friends. And now iam glad that i took the big step on going on to high school!:)
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